Happenings

Wah!Looks pretty long since this blog has had words written on it. Well things have been on a rollercoaster ride. Not so much of erm ups and downs but rather lots of time to ponder on lots of things. I m on sem break so there is soo much time to think of diff things. Seems complicated at times cuz i have set my sights on so many diff things and i guess i have it within me to pursue my new found goals but somehow there is an element of not really fear but fear that i may regret my pursuit.

Being in an unfamiliar position isn't nice cuz u cant really judge your future actions. You have not much of an idea on whats goin on. Sigh. Im there cz somehow the things that happen aren't new to most people but it is to me. Somehow i've never been down at that pit before and goin down the first time seems hard and seems that well its a lesson well learnt but it came the hard way. Guess there was a reason for the saying " There's always a first time".

And sure the first time is the hardest time. But getting thru it & surviving. So hope things turn out well.

"Pursuing what seems right in front of me seems right"

Unititled

Another ordinary day. Come and gone. Got away wit wat anyone would consider "murder". I m so lazy to go into the details of what happen, but to cut a long story short. My group got away without doing an assignment & we have been given a much easier topic to write an essay on instead of practical work. Owh WELL . Pretty much really good luck! Hmm. Nothing besides that has been really really pleasing. Days have been long and tiring. nothing much insipiring as well. my exams are in like wat 2 weeks time?? my finals. owh its that time again where i gotta look at my books & cram my subjects into my head. ow well.

"what a man feels inside is often never said
cuz even if it was said, its never accurate"


"Would you look at her
She looks at me
Shes got me thinking about her constantly
But she dont know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if shes figured out
Im crazy for this girl"

Frustrations

Well, its a been a very different week. I had a presentation on accounts today. Honestly i don't deserve what i got cuz i m not really all that good wit accounts and all. But somehow i presented well & got the marks for my group. Thank God for good results . To my team mates you guys were good as well.Thanks for being supportive. College work itself has been piling up wit loads to study & all. Then there is the personal frustrations to deal wit. Well there are things i personally feel that shud never have happened, and now that it has i guess its hard to just put it behind kinda thingy. Then there are just so many things i wished my family would support me.I mean why is it only when it comes to studies & all these things you support me but when it comes to my own desires you just sulk at every thing i suggest. I know you people would say "ow we did a lot when you were younger and you never lived up to expectations" or "you always dunno what's best for you". You know i think its ridiculous that you have an excuse every time for these things and honestly your excuses are probably dumb enough to fool a kid but hello i m 19!! These things just pile up every week and somehow when a week starts off well somewhere in de middle it collapses and again back to square one. It becomes a lousy odd week again! This is really really annoying and i somehow wanna freaking end it!!!!

Beyond Me

Well, i've had studying & assignments to complete. Due dates for my assignments & my mid term exams are so close by. Arghh! But partially its my fault too cuz i should have completed the assignments earlier. Ow well. Guess the circumstances made that difficult!Ow well sometimes i havent realized how far i've gone from what i used to be. In more than one way or another. I mean i have become so used to the way i was living till i never took notice it wasnt even right. Well i thank God for friends who wit much love & care pointed out these flaws to me. It wasnt to offend i m sure. It was more of care & love that followed their actions.After that particular incident, well i m not all perfect but i m trying to get my life back on track. Its tough facing challenges but i m sure that HIS grace is sufficient to see me through. Yes i do admit that spiritually i've gone a long way off. Compared to my new years resolutions i made, i m a million miles away from that. And again i m not proud admitting i've fallen but it seems so hard to pick myself up to even start crawling let alone start walking again. I guess to all of these there isn't much to talk bout cuz the answer is found in HIM. I guess i wouldn write anymore out here. Stating the reasons isnt of any use! Back to my assignments. -sigh-

One Last Cry

One Last Cry
My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf,
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else

Now I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings were gone
I give my best to you, nothing for me to do

But have one last cry, one last cry before i leave it all behind
I gotta put you outta my mind this time, been living a lie
I guess im down to my last cry...cry

I was here, you were there
I guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me

Still I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings were gone
Gotta get over you
Nothin' for me to do

But have one last cry, one last cry before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you outta my mind this time, been living a lie
I know i gotta be strong cause my life goes on and on and on and onnnnn

Im gonna dry my eyes right after i have my
One last cry, one last cry before i leave it all behind
I gotta put you outta my mind for the very last time, been living a lie
I guess im down
I guess im down
I guess im down to my last cryyyyyyyyy"

The Way It Is

Well its been so long since i've even blogged! I just have nothing appropriate to put in here! All that i wish to say i don think its right to put it up here! Frustrations are all i can sense around me! My exams are goin on! I really dunno why this seems appropriate but these lyrics are just what i feel like putting up. Not the best but its what thats been stuck in me for sometime. Its in the next post.

New Year

Well as 2007 has just passed by, it all seemed to have gone by so fast isn't it? one moment i was starting aim & the next i was enrolling into college & the next i was done wit 2 semesters in coll & the next was a 2 month break along wit christmas pracs & all. Well in short it seem like a long year gone by so quickly but in all honesty the were days which were long & hard. Days that i wanted to come to an end fast yet it took almost eternity to do so. Well every event that took place last year definately had its reasons & in a way i've grown as a person. The tough times have made me stronger & makes me more aware of the things surrounding me & as 4 the good things well i've had memories to cherish & moments to look back on. When i took time before new years eve service to reflect on the year that has just passed before me, i somehow felt that it was a year full of ups & downs. Indeed life is a rollercoaster ride. The loss of loved ones & the strenghtening of friendships & the material blessings have all been a part of this year. All of this somehow has made 2007 what it was. Ow well 2007 has gone and 2008 has arrived. A new year wit new challenges. College has just started & i sorted out my timetable today. I only have classes for 3 days this sem. YAY! But still those 3 days are long classes too. 4 subjects this sem & i know i really cant play the fool anymore!! So even as it starts well i know whats expected of me & i gotta perform. The 2 months of holiday has definately made me really really casual. haha! I literally dragged myself to coll today!Guess that wud take time! Ow well , there are lots of things needing attention now. Well i hope this year will be a good year. Challenges will come my way & i hope i'll be able to overcome each of it! The good to be cherished & the bad to be made as an experience!
-Cheers-