Long Gone

Well this blog hasnt been touch 4 like err ages. Yeeah i know. Never really had the time i guess. Well , lots of things have been happening off late!HMM. Dunno where to begin with actuall.Okay first things first i'll be getting the car soon. So at least a safer mode of transport to use n I consider it as God's blessing upon my life. Secondly i got a new CPU with all the specs i wanted n a rather cool casing too. Again i treat it as God's blessing upon my life. So these 2 things have been a new addition to me! Em personal issues well their almost the same. Nothing really that different! Well nowadays really bz wit Christmas pracs n all that.Yea its weeks of the same thing "its a merry christmas dayy... joyous holidayss.. bla bla...". But its still fun to go 4 cuz of frens company n all n more so cuz its ministry n its done unto God, so i give it priority. Besides that things are rather normal la. Youth meetings , going out , sports n pracs are my usuall daily routines. Added to that wud be err playing more games! Till the next time!!
-Cheers-

A week to remember

well i guess its a week to remember cuz it had ups & downs. i mean exams are done with. then i went 4 the job interview n got it. though now i m kinda regretting it. i m regretting it not cuz the money isn't up to what i want. the money is lucarative but in all its not what i want. i never wanted an office job. i know its experienced gained but somehow at this time of the year n at this age i just dont wanna be stuck in an office enviroment. but i guess im gonna be done wit it in a month's time. just wanna pull thru n get the money n get out of there n enjoy wit friends n my family. but there were postives too. i got 2 new shoes. 1 DC shoes which my cuzin bought from singapore & another was my football boots. well the boots was a gift from my dad 4 my b'day. guess it was long overdued. but still happy enough to get it. its a blue n white predator.

this is the dc shoes. its comfortable like anything!!

MY PREDATOR!!!

well on sunday the i failed the boots la. i shud hv played a lot better but somehow wit things on my mind i failed the boots badly! will make up 4 it this sunday! so this week i hv been in work! not likeing it 1 bit but i guess i hv to pull thru somehow. its just been work,work,work,work n more work! sigh! anyways nothing more to say. cant wait 4 the weekend!laterzz!

Freedom!

well i m finally done wit my exams!! yeah!! i had both my papers today. biz law & warehousing! biz law sucked to the max cuz the essay was lousy! damn hard & i guess i partially screwed that section! warehousing was okay & the questions were rather straightforward! i finished my exam bout 3.30. left the exam hall & headed down to the lobby!! there i just hanged around wit my frens 4 a while. then the goodbyes were said as most of us wont be seeing each other till next year. the short sem has eventually ended. n i hv learnt tat though i only know these ppl 4 such a short time i hv some really good moments in college. i hv had fun n had fun attending classes alongside these ppl. its been a good experience chit chatting in class n then cramming everythin one day before the exam!! hehe! (dennis n david n dinesh can identify wit this) well i must say i'll feel a bit different not seeing these ppl everyday. i guess its the same like school! anyways the sem has ended. i m now looking 4 a job i guess. goin 4 an interview tomoro. so i hope all goes well. till then this is what it is! laters!

4 of us

well it was a usuall tuesday. i went to coll after the public holidays. i went in de morning at 8. i was suppose to go for biz law class. well as usuall the lecturer decided to cancel class with no prior notice. but who cares cuz i was in no mood to go for class anyways.i was suppose to meet darren here , rachel hoo n kenny 4 lunch. but darren here was to come bout 10 or so. so yeah i met him at mcd's at 10. we sat there n talked over breakfast. well a lot of things to talk when i n him meet up wan!! then bout 11 plus kenny n rach joined us. again we started talking but this time we decided to give up the claypot chicken rice we wanted to eat. we decided to go lepaking somewhere else. so we headed to kenny's place. he dropped his car off n then we headed 4 the curve!! we went to borders n we're loooking at some books. not me n darren though!! rach bought a book of her choice n we wanted to eat in ikea but then the meatballs wasnt available. so we headed down to ittalianies. we ordered pizza & pasta. guess it was ideal cuz we spent bout almost 2 hours plus talkin n talkin n talkin. all the stories resurfaced!!! it was a good time n it was interesting too.. * ahem ahem* sure interesting cuz stories wat!!!! then we left ittalianies n went to drop off rach n kenny. darren here dropped me off then. i came back showered n got ready to start studyin. exams coming!!! noooo!! so yeah. had to study!! a lot more to cover!!
anyways i m off for now!! back to my books!!! latersss!!

The Hols

well my hols began on friday. thursday was a rather dull day but friday was fun. i woke up bout 9 plus then i got ready. left for one u. went with sister n dad. we were wondering wat to do but we started wit bowling like we initially planned to. bowling was fun. i had a bad start to it but i managed to regain my lost touch & soon i was hitting the pins like b4. after bowling decided to walk around for a while. then we went to hv lunch at italliannies. i enjoyed my milanese chicken & pizza that we shared. food was good. decided to walk around more n saw some stuff i was keen on buying come the year end. then we left one u headed straight to one u. picked mum up n went home 4 tea. after having tea i just worked out a lil n got ready to go 4 prayer meeting. prayer meeting started at 8 & concluded as usuall at bout 9.30. came back home 4 dinner & then spoke to piggy 4 a while. then, went to bed. tired alredy by then. saturday came. woke up real late forgetting tat i had choir practice. rushed to daniel's place n followed him to youth. suppose to spend the whole day out nstay over at his place. suppose to be at a shop called "telepon" to celebrate tim's b'day. but tim was not feeling well so that plan was called off. i went 4 dinner wit daniel n then went back to his hse. took my car n left 4 home cuz daniel had to go 4 a function. i went home n took a shower. watched the england game.total waste of time. it was so freaking boring!! daniel picked me up bout 2am n left 2 his hse. reached his home.played computer till bout 3.30am. then slept n woke up to sing in cheras next morning. yes we sang at ucsi my college( sigh) . after singing i left 4 dh. i followed parents back home. i hit the bed straight away. was tired but i left home bout 2 to head down to klang. i was staying over at my cuzin's place. we reached bout 4. spent time at different relatives homes b4 finally goin to mu cuzin's place where i was stayin over. it was fun though. played ps2 till bout 4 am. while playing we talked bout different experiences we'll had gone thru the past yr. we had a lot to catch up on cuz we havent spoken 4 a real long time. then came monday. i woke up n had b'fast. watched tv a lil n soon got ready to go hang out in sunway pyramid new wing. well it was fun. we cought up wit other cuzins n spoke even more. bout 7 i reached home n now yeah i m writing this blog. well tat was how my 4 days on holidays went. back to coll tomoro. not something i want to do bt well i hv only a few more days left. my finals are on the 23rd. then i m off for 2 n a half months. well thats how it went. hoping 4 dis weekend to come!! wanna play football!!

Weekly update

This week has been rather average la. monday nothing special. went home rather late after some work in coll. went 4 dinner wit my cuzin n all.tuesday rather the same. bz wit assignment n all. went 4 a drink wit piggy. wednesday spent the whole afternoon till night wit piggy. went 4 movie. the movie was good. i enjoyed it. very hilarious!! chuck n larry!!! hehe! thursday had biz law presentation. planned to escape by giving some stupid reason basically. but then yea some group members still wanted it done so no choice. was no where near my best to be able to present well but i guess i'll take wateva that comes. its been that kinda week! today is friday n yet another presentation. thank God i m done wit all these presentations by today. looking forward to the weekend!! guess the week had its ups n downs. ups wud be goin out wit piggy n all! downs i guess lack of sleep cuz of my workload as well as some other minor issues! basically thats it!!

Sucky Day

Somehow today seems a lil sucky la. Its like i wanna let u know so many things but yet haiz i really dunno why i cant express it. Wats holding me back??I dunno!! Well the others stuff were just normal i guess. College well just as usuall. Hectic & full of jokes & all the usuall stuff. Nothing special today. Like its been a rather frustrating & sucky day. The issue is the same. Its hard to talk to u but its my own weakness cuz its me who is not opening up! Nothing more to say la! A rather frustrating day ends!! ~sigh~

Sunday

the day began quite diff from all sundays. i went 10.30 service! service was good! learnt once again that despite ANYTHING what so ever HIS grace is sufficient for me. For us. I hv definately learn that burden was lifted. i felt it totally of my shoulders. after service went lepak wit the bunch of us. it was fun. hanged out after lunch & all. talked all sorts of crap!i"ll definately remember "chin tower & wong tower". Dan n ben jin, u'll have the wildest imaginations la. Then sang for 5 o'clock service. Was a good time of worship for all. Then , went to play football. Nothin great on the field but yea just average. Then, went dinner wit dw. Was good catchin up wit him n chattin bout some good stuff. All in all it was a good day. Tiring at the end but yea good in most ways. Less stress. Great time wit friends. So yeah. Its a new week! A new beggining! Expecting great things! YEAH!!!

Dream Car

Today, normal day basically. college and usuall stuff. the unsuall? ferari f430! man i saw that car and i was like wow! seen many of them before but today maybe cuz it was a dull day.. so yea i think i woke up after seeing that car!! man its an awesome car!superb torque!elegant look! everything bout that car is admirable.

Is that my dream car? Well its a dream car of sorts though.I mean realistically no one would choose to refuse an f430. Its probably any man's dream to ride in something like that! But yea i do have 1 personal favourite dream car so to speak. Thats the lamborgini murcielago!This 1 just has to be the car probably any living human wish they owned! brilliant.

Full view of the car. Awesome beauty!! Menancing speed!!

Its interior!Beautiful!Just amazing basically!
Its a dream car today , hopefully it'll be the one i ride in someday!!=)

Days Passing

its been so long since i last posted anything. more than a month. reason being i just didnt wanna see all the previous post. well things certainly are much brighter now. the past still hurts but moving on doesnt seem to be to hard.
last wednesday i took my results for my previous semester. well suprisingly i had 2A's B n the sad part is i flunked 1 paper. i was seriously annoyed cuz well i did put in effort for that subject so to screw it up like that was really urgh!! i spoke to the lecturer but to no avail. who cares la? let that woman be!! i'll retake the sub & make sure i get thru this time. overall i am pretty happy wit the results. happy tat i m the haighest for economics in my faculty. so now the new sem has begun. things look good. more friends. more fun. more studyin. but yea coping well!!
anyways its been a good start to the new semester. its a short 1 though. only 7 weeks.
well things look good & i am hoping it stays this way!!

just not right

well, its again one of those times where the answers will just either never be right or the answers u want them to be. well i don mind it being the answer i want but at least i rather get the right kinda answer. but i dunno when u'll ever know. i dunno if u'll ever know.but i tell u my dear friend , whatever u see its not what it seems. its just not true. when the truth comes out, i hope u'll realize that all this while i hv been tryin to say it 4 ur own good. i never did anythin like this before just to prove the truth. but i did it confidently this time knowing i m right.
mich, when u find out all the truths remember i am a friend who wont close the door. though everyone may come up 2 u n say that "i told u its gonna happen", i wont say that. i know there is more in u which will eventually come out. i pray that u may find happiness n all that u need in life. i hope u realize sooner rather than later why i m warning u bout wats gonna happen. i wouldn be writing it out here if i knew it was a lie. i m writing it cuz i m hoping someday u'll get to read it. i want this to be the real evidence.

mich, he said those words back in kl sentral & the reason i sweared is that u may know its de truth.i never did that before. i usually leave it to people as to whether they wanna believe or not. but 4 u i m wanting u to fully believe it not 4 any reason. just so that u don go thru all de pain. i just wanna help. not cuz i wanna make a good name or anythin. its 4 u. really just 2 help u. but i wont force u to believe. i m telling wat i heard. i was there.

mich , i know from our time together that u loved these songs so much. so i just thought i'll let u know that its something that i like very much too. i wont put up de lyrics but from these 2 songs u'll know how much u mean to me.
the songs are on my display..

take care..

this is for you

my dear friend,
i know one day you will get to read this. its the hardest thing i have had to do.it was hard while deciding. as painfull as it is for me to do it i hope one day u will reap the benefits of this my dear friend. its not easy leaving u & all the memories behind. i really dont know how i am going to go through things without you. whatever it is remember michelle stay strong. remember that you are in control of every situation. don break down under any situation. stay strong my dear friend. lastly, though things are not the same anymore. i just want u to know that i am always praying 4 your happiness & well being. Regardless of my scars, i still care 4 you michelle. i still care. i dunno what things may be like in the future but i do know that i'll always remember you. i'll cherish all the memories n times spent together. you were different michelle from the rest. i appreciate you for all you've done. thanks for everything. take care where ever you are my dear friend. before i sign out i just want u to know once again , that if you fall , i'll be there as a friend to pick you up.

take care michelle..

crushed

sometimes i sit n wonder why did i ever change?if only i wz the old person. the eric who never agreed to long term relationships. i watched a movie before which said that everybody has a place in life n its pointless to think that u can really go very far from ur destiny. well some ppl have of cuz travelled beyond their destiny. but for me i think its merely a far fetched dream that may never or likely never to happen. when i started de relationship everythin looked perfect. understanding as she was yet so caring yet so loving. today where is all that??all i have is mere bitter n painful memories. i put my past behind. i put my old self behind just to keep u happy. u were special in so many ways. i thought i knew u were de one. unfortunately life has a different tale for everyone. i sacrificied , i compromised , i agreed to things which u did tat i knew were gonna harm the relationship. all because i wanted u to be happy. You promised me a lot n u fullfilled all those promises until march dis yr. things when down. i dunno why. i gave my all to u. today i look back. like u said many times in the past i was ur source of happiness.u said that i always kept u happy. i picked u up when u fell.u said i wz there for u. i still wanna be there for u. my heart still wants u back. no doubt u were special to me. i m writing this blog as a clear indication on how i hv been feeling this last couple of weeks. if i wz someone who never did anythin for de relationship, then i accept what i get. but i did more n beyond my own capabilities for u. in the end... all i hv is a shattered relationship.. broken beyond healing..it hurts..

my friends who view this blog especially my aim classmates n my church frens this explains my disappearance from church. it also explains why my health went down. it explains why i hv been the way i m in church. i know i m not the old eric n even as i write this blog i m not de old eric. the hurt is there. i doubt it will ever heal. the scar i hv is beyond healing. but i'll never fail to thank u guys who were there 4 me.i will not mention names cuz all of guys were there 4 me. thanks again. i hope one day i will return as the old eric.
a blog like this doesnt usually come out of a guy but its how much i hv been broken inside. crushed , broken and depleted.

Magical moment!

hahah!! sunday came! didnt start well. argument wit her! didnt sort things out well too!came de time 2 play football!!well i started of normally.average la. as the game went on i found a lot of joy playin down de wing. until one moment in de match. got de ball off another player. raced 2 it n hammered it. wat made is chun was it was de outside of my foot.haha. which means even harder la!!it dipped n swriled pass de keeper!! haha. personally was happy 2 score a goal like that cuz its been a dream 2 score from a volley. haha..so great strike. relationship got better too. things settled. so yea!!a bad starting to de day which ended up all well in de end!

Reminder

it wz a normal day last friday. one of my friends came into college. like normal we crapped around n waiting 4 lecture 2 start. then we happened to be talkin bout all de so called "bad boy" things one dis guys has done before. well to my suprise he suddenly told a story which seemingly wasnt true yet striking enough that i will not take it lighlty.he received a phone call from his distant relative.his relative hardly ever calls him but today well she did! she called him n began to say things like if u die today where will u end up?where will u spend eternity? where will u belong to 4 eternity?ma fren being ma fren just stood rather dumb-founded! well she spoke a while telling him that things of this world currently arent so good n so on n so forth. she left him wit 2 main points. even king solomon who had 700 wifes quoted tat nothing under de sun can satisfy n she reminded him tat where we spend eternity is in our hands!!its scared me at firstn but it reminded me eventually wat i gotta do to make it!

college exams!!

yeah!!done wit almost all my papers 4 midterm.only 2 papers left. suddenly finishing exams seem like school once again.just tat coll is slightly more fun but just as stressfull.well economics wz tough bt "do-able". erm business paper wz well rather simple.honestly.. come on la lecturer wat were u thinkin of giving questions like that? waste of time!!..well gotta go prepare 4 de last 2 papers!!boredoom n tiredness strike yet again!!

Flashback

30 april 07. a normal day for many not for me. gained somethin but began to lsoe somethin more valuable. I got my driving license n well a sign that i hv grown up. Not really. The very next incident well yea brought me down. i began to lose my relationship with a loved one n before long it affected my family ties. ever since that day it hz been sleepless nights n sorrowfull days. i dragged myself to college , dragged myself to church n almost everythin i did , i did it half-heartedly. things never got better ,infact in began to get worse as time went on. i reached a point where giving up on life seemed 2 be de only way out. thank God that He has his own ways of revealing things. Indeed, God raised up caring friends to lend a listening ear. more so he sent friends to reveal his plan that all things are not dead just yet. a week ago i realised why giving up on life wud hv been such a waste. my relationship wasnt all dead yet. there was some hope n today i can stand sayin that indeed things hv worked out for de better. what seemed dead a month ago is now being revived n its back on the right track. i found a bunch of caring friends willing to go the extra mile.In all i wanna thank everyone who stood by me n those who consistently encouraged. thanks guys. appreciate every bit of the help i got. thanks again.

The Begining

It a new blog ^.^